Huffing and Puffing before the Great Fire

Maybe I just have a fascination with darkness but I like to think I am able to see things as they really are. What you see of me on this blog is only part of who I am. I am really a very light-hearted person. But sometimes here I feel it is necessary to convey some darker truths. One such apparent truth is the major conflict that is brewing between Israel and Iran. A conflict which has the potential to bring us all to the brink of World War 3 or some other global conflict scenario. Right now it seems to me that the pieces of a very well orchestrated strategic conflict are being moved into place. At the head of this orchestration, we’re beginning to see a lot of huffing and puffing on both sides. Most of which is taking place between Iran, Israel, the US and Russia. But behind such public scenes of supposed supremacy and thinly veiled threats, the war has already been mapped according to a fixed number of potential choices and outcomes. And no doubt  this is a war that both america and Russia have used every device to understand – including the remote viewers and psychics that have been helping them map world events for the last 40 or so years. If this war does unfold (and particularly if it unfolds as I have written about previously) the global impact on all of us will be profound. If major oil supplies from the arab/OPEC nations are interrupted, the impact on petrol/agriculture/food will be catastrophic. If in addition the US and Europe dive into a major recession/depression, the impact will be multiplied in intensity.

I still believe in peace between nations, even at the 11th hour. But thus far the UN’s efforts to placate nations on all sides have been unencouraging. I would like to believe that despite what seems to be happening, leaders in the US, English, Russian and Chinese administrations remain level-headed and focussed on supporting peace and avoiding war at any cost.

Abe Lincoln – The Master of Ceremonies

Here’s a crypic question that is highly relevant to what’s happening in 2012 – Why was Abraham Lincoln really assassinated in 1865 ? If you know the answer to that question, you know a great deal !

Image by Andy Thomas (http://www.andythomas.com/detail.aspx?ID=63)

A Tumour Called Freedom – Update (And other feely stuff)

It’s been a while since I talked about the experience of having cancer, so I thought I might share a little of what I’ve been feeling and experiencing.

I’ve been working with the Healing Teaching that Kanatek gave me and trying to understand what I learned from my alien contacts on January 19th last year. To understand what I learned from the experience I have had to learn new ways to open up to and to dialogue with my body and I’ve also developed a new method of connecting with the aspect of self which remembers all the encounters. This came out of an experiment I did a while back in using methods borrowed from voice dialogue/big mind to talk to different aspects of self within this life and beyond this life. It’s been quite an unusual experiment and I no longer have a concrete idea of the concept of self or my own sense of self – other than the feeling of the life force. In fact now it seems like such a fluid concept, I have days where I almost can’t recognize the way that most people see who they are. For me it has become important to integrate both dualistic and non dualistic states of awareness and I am learning slowly to function with both. So anyway, I’m ok with all that I have learned and as I said all of this has been a really useful tool for accessing non conscious memories of any aspect of my past, but especially my alien encounters.

Kantek’s Healing Teaching has turned my perception of reality on its head. On the one hand I feel myself healing and already healed but on the other I do not deny when I feel great pain and the inevitable presence of my tumours or other unrelated pain. They are only my body and of my body, so for me there is an opportunity to experience great peace. When I have pain, I know it is the body creating an opportunity for harmony. If I listen harmony prevails and I feels great peace. If I ignore my pain, disharmony results and I feel great inner turmoil. So now I try carefully to experience the pain for what it is and to avoid bathing in the experience of feeling sorry for myself but at the same tame I don’t deny when it hurts. Does that make sense ? Pain is the great teacher of awareness. I just feel the pain without projecting any reactivity. Then I let it go. But if it bothers me, I don’t beat myself up about that or being bothered. What is, is. I am trying to be fully present to whatever arises in the moment.

Mostly I feel pretty good. The hardest part of having Carcinoid Cancer is having Carcinoid Syndrome http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Carcinoid_syndrome. Most days when I start the day well hydrated (500 ml of warm water with breakfast) I get severe diarrhea. If I avoid the water I have firm stools but my one kidney hurts like hell and I get vascular pain in my legs due to inadequate circulation due to one kidney. If I don’t sleep well, my tumours flood me with Serotonin and other hormones and I get the shakes or crash for half a day. If I over eat or eat the wrong foods (spicy food (which happens to be my favourite food) fatty food or some high fibre foods) I have a major episode in which I get the shakes, a severe itchy rash on my back (flushing) , chronic abdominal pain and diarrhea and find it difficult to stay conscious. On Christmas day I had an episode which was so bad, I felt like I might die. It was very uncomfortable. I’ve been living with the syndrome for 15 years but it’s only in the last year that my oncologist has confirmed that I actually have it.  Because I have had it so long I have had to learn to live with it. Most people have injections of Octreotide to control Carcinoid symptoms and it sometimes reduces the size of tumours. But these injections also cause secondary side effects if taken over a long period of time. Most people with Carcinoid Cancer die of the secondary diseases caused by the excess of hormones, before they die of the cancer itself. Some days living with this is so hard. But mostly I am ok. I love life more than ever and am very happy and grateful to be alive.

Today my son who was born with congenital heart disease, turned 13 and I was so happy. He could have died but instead he is here with his new iPad, his favourite game Minecraft and his squeaky voice which is oscillating between hey man I’m so cool, I’m a real man husky kind of Barry White, not a tweeny and I can sing Castraaaaatttti because I have no balls. I look at him and I see life and that gives me great joy. 

On Monday I am due for my next Oncology check up. I have had all my blood tests but have yet to find out the results. On Monday I’ll also have more scans before seeing my oncologist. I am so tired of all this follow-up. I don’t know what result will come of Mondays visit. I am optimistic that I am healing but I accept that it may be time for radical treatment. A lot of things are riding on this next result. First, I want to know that I am well – as much for my families sake as for my own. Second, I am trying to start a new part-time business teaching meditation, mindfulness and a range of self-awareness/personal development subjects. I hope to leave  my part-time work, so that I can once again work for myself and find new joy in my work. And lastly, I would like to make a decision about the severe space weather petition – whether to pursue that and a range of activities associated with it or whether to drop the whole thing. On this subject I would like to say a few things.

Having cancer come back and learning about my wife’s brain tumour  has been my own personal apocalypse – I wouldn’t wish these things on anyone. Having said that, I am eternally grateful to these experiences as both gifts and teachers. I now have such an acute sense of feeling for life itself, that I have changed irreversibly. I am also acutely sensitive to the many choices and decisions that I make about my life, including the activities that I pursue. It is important for me to know why I do everything I do. As an example, I left Facebook because it was obvious to me that I was spending too much time in that world and not enough time looking after myself or with my family. So, coming back to the severe space weather petition. This solar event is one of those events that I have discussed with my alien friends. But it is one of many things I have discussed, along with things like the life of people I love – such as my wife, my son, my sister and my father. And as I work at unearthing the memories of what we discussed, I have this strange sense of knowing some things, although I can’t remember all the details. It’s as if they or our own minds, prevent us from knowing too much, allowing us to remember what we need to know at  just the right time. And I’ve realised something. Sometimes the aliens shared things with me, not because they wanted me to do anything about a particular issue but simply because I asked about it or they wanted me to know. They simply wanted to broaden my awareness – they did not urge me to do anything. And yet, as a human being who feels for others – be they human, animal or otherwise; I feel a kind of moral imperative sometimes to help make things better. I call that the fix it gene. It’s a strong trait in people in the helping professions – eg. doctors, nurses, teachers, social workers, counsellors, psychologists etc. It’s almost impossible for people like this to just accept things as they are. And that for me is a great lesson – can I just leave things as they are. As if everything that is or that happens, is as it should be – is all within the body of god – is as gods will wishes it to be (pardon the religious undertone). 

Here’s an example and it’s something that I have struggled with now for several years. A great solar catastrophe is going to happen. And no matter what we do to prepare for it, it is still going to happen and millions of people will be adversely affected. I know this. I know where and when and how and yet I feel utterly powerless. Some days I look at my memories and this feeling of knowing that is anchored in what took place in the encounters and I say to myself what if it’s all bullshit ? And you know that’s what I want. I want it to be all bullshit. Some crazy delusion. Like reptilians. So I walk around with this dualistic struggle – it is going to happen vs what if it isn’t going to happen  ? And some days it really torments me. I have another encounter coming up on the 14th April and I would like to imagine that I will talk more about this issue with my otherworldly friends. But you know, I already know why they have shared this with me. Not so that I can prevent anything but because they know I want to know and they are preparing me. I don’t know why. And I don’t hold that against them. It’s me that doesn’t understand. And you know what, that kind of comes back to the Zen concept of don’t know mind, beginners mind. When we don’t know, when our minds have not fully explained something away but have reached an impasse where we allow the possible, and we let go of all that we have been grasping, there is suddenly room for anything and everything. That is the place in which true awareness and understanding arises. 

I know that some of those in what I have called The Architecture and others in government (particularly in America) are preparing for the great solar catastrophe because they feel they need to prepare against it (despite the futility of preventing great suffering) and because it is the only way to reduce our population and change the direction of many of the current human trends that have established themselves over hundreds of years. This is an  opportunity as much as a catastrophe. I also know that if I get a good result on Monday and I feel up to it, I will probably try my hardest to do something about helping prepare our species for this event. And finally I know that everything happens for a reason. If I am correct and this event does occur; despite great suffering we will be transformed by this event, like nothing else we have ever experienced. And if it doesn’t happen, what a wonderful ”idea” to scare the crap out of ourselves and propel us into our coming of age in the milky way ! Are we as a species capable enough to get it ? Only time will tell. But I remain, as always, an optimist and absolutely amazed that I am here now to experience this – what seems like, the most amazing period of human history ! Every day is a blessing !!!

Solar Update : X1.7 Class Solar Flare

At 18:37 UTC today the sun released an X1.7 Class flare from sunspot 1402 in the north west.  A large coronal mass ejection seems to be headed away from Earth into the west. This is the seventh strongest solar flare of solar cycle 24. This follows the M3.2 class flare from sunspot 1401 and M8.7 class flare from sunspot 1402  last week. An R3 level radio blackout and an S2 level radiation storm have been caused by today’s activity. More info at solarham.com and spaceweather.com. 

Keep an eye on the large coronal holes on the south side of the sun and sunspots. Might the next 100 sunspots put on an extraordinary show, as the sun reaches the zenith of solar cycle 24 ? 

What is it ?

Is this a genuine anomaly – a natural formation or something artificial ? Maybe a UFO ? If this turns out to be some sort of UFO/USO, this could be the beginning of Marine UFOarchaeology ! All those little discs on Google Earth could turn into the most sought after objects on the planet ! Or maybe the Earth will turn out to be more unusual and a little more radial than we have come to believe. Time will tell.

Jonathon Reed Debunked

Some of my regulars will recall that I have made comments about some so called legitimate alien contact cases. One of these being Jonathon Reed, who I have insisted is faking his story and I would go so far as to say, he has been put into this situation. I still believe that this is the case, primarily because of how he is telling his story and because it would not be possible for him to do this to an alien entity. Nor would such an entity have reacted this way to his dog. I just cannot buy his story – it doesn’t feel right. Anyway, enough of my opinion. Today I watched a new video in which the team from Fake or Fact attempted to recreate what he said happened and test his story. Their conclusion – it only happened in his head. Make up your own mind. If it did happen, Jonathon Reed is a killer. 

Fight for the Future (Without Fighting)

I was very pleased to see this morning that this weeks SOPA protest has seen the US Congress postpone voting on the proposed censorship Bill. I don’t think that that means this attempt at controlling free speech is over but it is a very promising situation. What encourages me most, is that according to Fight for the Future, some 10 million people signed the protest and 115,000 took part in the protest. For now the little people have kicked corporate/government butt ! But this may well be just the beginning. 

And in case you didn’t think this was important because it’s a proposed American Congress Bill. Google is American and is the leading internet search engine. America has most of the world’s routers. Hollywood produces most of the world’s movies. America produces most of the world’s music. Youtube is American and may well be responsible for such movements as the Arab Spring. And that’s just a few core services that are based in America. China and India are not quite as internet lethal. America is the hub of the internet. Censor the internet in America and you censor the whole world. 

Please consider taking action in the future to support this cause. 

More info here : 

http://www.sopastrike.com/numbers

http://sopastrike.com/timeline

http://www.sopastrike.com/

https://docs.google.com/document/pub?id=1IfjlIM8fTKqnHyGOAWGApIuwhI2HfCNek1fE99NqE-4&pli=1

https://fightfortheftr.wordpress.com/

http://americancensorship.org/

http://www.nytimes.com/2012/01/20/technology/dodd-calls-for-hollywood-and-silicon-valley-to-meet.html?_r=1&scp=1&sq=dodd%20arab%20spring&st=cse

Stop Internet Censorship

People need to get off their ass and get proactive about voicing their opposition to this crack down on internet freedom. Yes, some legislation of some sort is needed to maintain a healthy, safe internet and piracy is a problem but this is not the solution. Each solution creates it’s own problems !            

http://www.youtube.com/user/IPowerchannel

http://vimeo.com/31100268

I Am You

Every year I try to express a little gratitude to all my readers. But this year I wanted to say a special thank you.

Thank you to WordPress for giving me a free platform to speak. Thank you to Youtube for letting me share my own truth.

Thank you to The Powers that Be/The Architecture for allowing me to mostly speak my mind and for showing an interest in what I have to share. Do not be concerned, I know where the line is.

Thank you to my regular commentators, including KMG, Julian, Margie, Quanta, Sadie Jane, K, OL, LOR, Hui Sun, Vision Vine, Volma, Time Traveler, Sandy, my Sis, Soule, Posky, Karen, Darla,  the dream portal, Queenie in the House, hkim135, Danson, Sparrow1969, Mari, Randell, Liz Durkin, Max Morroni, Zoe and Dawn Arts. Your feedback always makes the relationship worthwhile. Your opinions matter.

Thank you to everyone who made a donation, especially Karen, Herb/Rama the K, Astrid and Natasa (sorry if I missed anyone) – your donations helped at a critical time. More importantly your show of kindness really touched me.

Thank you to every one who showed their concern, when I learned that I had cancer again. The journey with tumours  called freedom continues !

Thank you to everyone who took the time to offer a question for my alien friends. The questions I ended up choosing are still in the offering, when the time is right. Some have already been asked and I have shared what needs to be shared with those individuals. 

Thank you also to all those crazies and fruit cakes who feel it within their responsibility and power to save me with Jesus or David Icke or some other god. And thank you to everyone who felt the need to get nasty. I bow to you all !

Mostly thank you to everyone who has taken the time to read my blog this year and my regulars who come back every day or so. You make it worth my while. 

Thank you no matter where you might be, be it : America, Australia, UK, Canada, Netherlands, Germany, Italy, India, Argentina, Czech Republic, Philipines, France, Spain, Brazil, New Zealand, Poland, Mexico, Sweden, Russian Federation, Belgium, Indonesia, Ireland, South Africa, Taiwan, Norway, Denmark, Romania, and the other 120 countries that represent the people who have visited this blog. WOW ! This shows me how connected we really are and is one way that demonstrates our oneness to me personally. I AM YOU AND YOU ARE ME.  We are inseparable.

When I started this blog, I wondered if anyone would be interested in what I have to share and I am not saying that anyone is, but 45,095 visits is encouraging. 

Thank you and may you all have a prosperous, happy and content 2012.

Best wishes,

Bright.

Top Posts

Hey Folks – here’s a quick update on the most viewed posts for the last year. If it was my choice, it would have been a completely different group of posts. But alas, who knows what gets people’s attention. The top post after the home page, was the one about the Chinese  sand circle – thanks to someone who posted a link at the Above Top Secret forums. I later posted information about this being a hoax but that didn’t seem to make the radar ! People also seemed very interested in the changes taking place in 2011 and the usual – crop circles, aliens and UFO’s. Personally the most interesting thing to me is the posts (albeit summaries) of the alien encounters I had and the discussion I had with my wife about alien contact. But who am I to tell you what to read ? Thanks for being interested !!!